What’s in the name?
It’s been very long since I wrote anything this lengthy.
Please bear with me
Just hold your thoughts for a second; I need to clear the air first. Don't go
by the title. This post is not in any faintest way related to literature. If
you know me well, then you know how far end of the spectrum I’m on when it
comes to English literature. All I can read well is some mediocre fiction with
excellent plots and that’s all.
Now that I have set your expectations low, let me dive straight into the topic.
Probably the first thing you came to know about me was my name. The moment you
heard my name, especially if you are a Tamilian, you would have identified me
with a particular region or particular caste or a particular food. Some may even
go beyond that and try to extrapolate my possible relation to the infamous
finance minister. I agree that our community is small and everyone could be
related to everyone, but it is far stretched. The point is every time when I said
my name, most of them assumed they knew one or other thing about me. You may
ask, What now? Why are you cribbing?
Let me share this side of my story… the pride, joy, discomfort, and uneasiness
of having such a unique name. I’m not alone in this journey; most of the
children born in our community have such unique names. We have this rich
tradition of being named after our ancestors, or Kula Devata. I’m really proud
of this as it keeps me strongly tied to my roots and aligns me with life, both
inside out.
But see, every good thing comes with a price in this world…so does my name.
First of all, it is but natural to mispronounce my name. In my college days, a
prof used this trick to intentionally mispronounce names to lighten up the
sleepy post lunch sessions. Often, my name ended up crooked in his attendance
register during roll calls, and the whole class would burst out in laughter. I
didn’t have enough maturity to handle it at that time and I wondered why my
grandparents had to name me like this.
When I came to Bangalore, after so many people unknowingly called me Nagamani,
I became what I was called at home, simply Nachu. But my miseries were to still
follow…People who were fond of Mexican food took the liberty to call me Nachos.
Even some North Indian people thought it was funny to ask me if I could dance.
Often times, I have wondered what it is to have a name like Nivedita and stay
mysterious in a quiet corner, people left without having anything to judge. All
said, it doesn’t hurt or make a big deal anymore, but still, I cannot shrug it
off lightly like Khalid Umar, the famous blogger in his recent post, comments
that name is just an ID given by parents. For me, Name evokes complex emotions that we can
rarely fathom. Surely, Name matters, and all the little things in
between matter too.